I Got This

Those are the words that I’ve been hearing lately in my brain.  “I got this”.  With each new task or situation placed before me, I seem to be saying subconsciously, “I got this.”  Many of you can read from my last few posts that I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster for most of the year.  So many things have been changing and I feel pushed and pulled in all different directions, but lately I’ve sort of reached a plateau in my situations and all I say is “I got this.”  So, when I’m at work and my boss hands me an assignment with little instruction, I murmur, “I got this.” When my son asks me to explain, “Why is Bailey a real dog and can I have a different real dog?” I say, “I got this” and respond, “Bailey is a real dog, because God made him a real dog, like He made you a real boy.” Makes sense to me.  It didn’t make sense for Brennan and he began to ask a million and one questions, “Well if God made him a real dog, why can’t He make my stuffed animals real?” Uh oh.  I don’t think I was prepared for that.  I stuttered and said, “Let me think about it and get back to you.”  I still hadn’t thought of a plausible response to that question so I began to wonder, do I truly got this?  

Having it all together doesn’t necessarily mean that I know everything right?  I’ve been embarking on a new journey in my life and I’ve been in prayer more and just trying to find peace.  I started to redecorate my home and then my life. I’m going through this transformation and I realize that I need to stop thinking I can do it all by myself.  I don’t need to have everything and I don’t need to have everything together.  Sometimes, I need to step back and accept the help from those who love me the most and let them say, “I got this.” So many times I’ve always tried to be the back bone for others and it feels wonderful to let those who love me the most be my back bone.  My friends and family have truly stepped up and embraced me through my metamorphosis and have provided invaluable counsel, tools and love and I know that I’m better than I was yesterday because of who they are.  

So, when I think that “I got this” and I realize that I truly don’t got it, I’m comforted to know that I have people in my corner who love me and got me and in essence, they got this too.