What I received this year…
An introspective spirit – This was a recent gift that I was given just last week. I’ve had some things that have hit me when I was least expecting it and I’ve been so self-absorbed in the issue that I just felt alone, abused and resentful that this was happening to me. I was absorbed in the issue and letting it drag me down and weigh down my attitude and spirit. But, I received the ability to reflect on the issue and realize that I need to stop obsessing and use it as a teachable moment.
Here’s what happened: On Sunday, December 13th the police knocked on my door asking do I own a blue Nissan Maxima. “Yes,” I replied. “Can you please come outside” he asked. When I got outside he told me that my new neighbor backed into my car with a U-Haul and flagged him down to find me so that he could report the accident. I was floored. I fell on the ground crying out some not so nice things and screaming what were you doing? How am I going to get my son back and forth to school?
This situation absorbed my thoughts, interrupted my sleep and had me beat down. I hated when people said “It’s only material”. What the heck does that mean? It’s my material and you’re not offering to fix anything, tow my vehicle or get me a rental. Nope. This man stalled, didn’t do anything and I was paying out of my pocket for a rental car, still paying a car note and insurance on a car that was inoperable and needed to be towed. I was in angst.
Wednesday, December 16th I was driving home with my Munch and I told him that I owed him an apology. He asked me for what. I told him that I always tell him that he has to have an attitude of gratitude and that I haven’t been very gratuitous lately because I’ve been worried about our car. I told him that I know that the same God that got me that car would get me another and that I needed to praise HIM during the times of plenty and the times of few because our God never fails. I told him that I needed to remind myself of that because I was leading by example and not by words. He said “it’s okay.”
So, the introspective spirit was a gift that I received. It has allowed me to reflect and know when I’m being spoiled. For that I’m truly thankful.