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The Sins of My Father

I have a confession. I’ve struggled with forgiveness for so long. I told ya’ll about what my therapist said about how I gave my dad grace and not forgiveness. So, here I am feeling somewhat guilty because it has been 3 weeks since my dad called me. He called me on my birthday.

The first time in 34 years. Do you know how disappointed I used to be each and every year? But, God. Each year got easier. I realized that it just didn’t matter to him.

Until 2018. I guess it did matter. He called and left a message saying Happy Birthday. 

I haven’t returned his call. I made up excuses. I had some real stuff going on and real health issues that took priority. But, I haven’t called him back. Why?

I honestly don’t know. I think I am just struggling with my feelings for him. So, I’ve been trying to catch up on some blog posts. Forgive me for my delays. Muddling through emails, throwing myself back in work and then I read two posts about forgiveness.  I stopped.

One was by Maya Moore entitled Football & Forgiveness  and the other by Chris Weatherly entitled What I Wish Everyone Understood About Forgiveness. Two posts in less than 30 minutes about forgiveness? What was going on?

It was as though God was speaking to me. Talking to me. Telling me to push forward and understand where I’m at and decide where I want to be. To talk to him and to let him know. The truth.

I declined to do so. Me and God don’t always see eye to eye, but I know that in the end His word is forevermore, no matter how stubborn I am. So, I pushed his voice to the side and kept it moving. Until Chris Weatherly posted this:

via What I Wish Everyone Understood about Forgiveness

I couldn’t hide anymore. I couldn’t ignore. God was trying to tell me something.

Please read these posts about forgiveness. It will truly encourage you. Are you struggling like me?


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    1. Thank you so much. That post spoke to me and I knew it was too good that I had to share. God uses people to remind you that he’s there and I’m thankful that you were the messenger.


  1. Thank you for sharing my post!

    I have struggled with forgiveness, abuse and issues with my dad myself for many years, when I’m further along in my healing journey I plan to blog more about them all.

    Sis I’m glad God is speaking to you! He always is.

    Praying for you and Munch! Great picture btw!

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  2. I have struggled for years with the whole “forgiveness” thing. I saw a new therapist last week and she said we were going to work on forgiveness….of self. I immediately balked and said “I don’t need to forgive myself. I didn’t do anything wrong! I didn’t cheat on my husband, give him a disease, destroy the family, pick up some cocaine-addicted tramp in a bar and start writing thousand dollar checks to him, all the while still playing wifey to him.”
    On the way home, it occurred to me…”she’s right.” I need to forgive myself for having been such a blind, trusting, spineless fool for almost all of my life.”
    Don’t know if it will happen, but…..

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    1. I can see that. I feel like I should have a relationship with him but I’m struggling because I don’t need it and I’m not sure I want one. My therapist said I need to find the beauty in the brokenness of things and understand it isn’t permanent. We’ll see.

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