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Blue is my Favorite Color!

I have always loved the color blue.  Ever since I was a little girl, I thought the color was the most soothing and calm color ever discovered in a crayon box.  I wanted everything blue; blue dresses, blue barrettes, blue shoes and blue toys. Blue is and will always be my favorite color.

The thing is…I stopped wanting everything to be blue and went through a “no blue period” where I was blue.  The color didn’t appeal to me anymore.  I started to see it is as just a color.  Nothing special.  I realized that I was feeling blue.  This was last year. I just had my random “blue days” that lasted about six months.  Until one day it just stopped.

Blue became my favorite color again.  I started loving and embracing the color that has always calmed my spirit.  I redid my living room in blue.  I have blue walls, blue pictures and blue accessories.  I bought a blue car last year and I bought a blue dress this year.  I am embracing the blue.  Blue is and will always be my favorite color!

I realized that my “no blue period” was a phase.  I was running from what I loved the most.  The color blue.  Why?  Because I let the pressures of the world and my environment dictate how I felt.  It consumed me.  I became consumed with the distractions.  That translated into me being stressed and not being able to find calm.  Find peace.  Find something that reminded me that God was in control.  I needed blue.

Sometimes we let life dictate and drive our life force by changing who we are and what we truly love.  We have to remember to get refocused, re-energized and renewed.  Find what makes you happy.  Find your blue.  Find whatever you need to center you and bring you back to the place that makes you calm. Don’t let the worries, frustrations or distractions from others surrounding you put you in a bad space.

But in this you need to be thankful for the “no blue period”.  It reminds you that you are human.  You are flawed.  You feel.  You hurt.  You exist.  But, let it be temporary.  Use the time to get you back on track. Find your strength and encouragement.  For me it helps to reach for the word of God.  I grab my Bible and find solace in the words.  Like in Psalms 116:1-6 (MSG) it says “I love God because he listened to me, listened as I begged for mercy.  He listened so intently as I laid out my case before him. Death stared me in the face, hell was hard on my heels.  Up against it, I didn’t know which way to turn; then I called out to God for help:  “Please, God!” I cried out. “Save my life!” God is gracious – it is he who makes things right, our most compassionate God.  God takes the side of the helpless; when I was at the end of my rope, he saved me.”

He saved me.  I still have “blue days” but they don’t last always.  I will continue to grow and change, but I will never forget that blue calms me.  I listen to my inner spirit.  I accept that I will make mistakes, suffer heartbreaks and failures, but I find that place where blue resides and it calms me.  Blue is my favorite color!

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