I spent so many nights sleeping in your bed under the guise that you missed me. You missed me? You didn’t even know that I existed other than in the privacy of your own home. Your “bedroom queen” is what you called me even though I longed to be more.
But, you weren’t ready. No commitment would come, but I would give you pieces of my spirit in hopes that you would find solace between my thighs. See, I knew that life had dealt you some difficult blows and I was sacrificing my womb to give you shelter from your pain.
Pain that was inflicted when you no longer had love in your life and I like so many before me thought that I could save you. To change you. To make you see that I am the woman who you should choose. My spirit belonged to you and I wanted to sit inside your soul and sing sweet songs to your spirit.
But, the pain became unbearable. I could no longer stand the smell of you, the taste of you, the feel of you, the look of you and the thought of you. I chose the path less traveled in order to save myself and pull my battered heart away from yours. I untangled my spirit from your lips and your lies and buried the hurt in a sea so deep that no one will ever see…
That in this space where you and I laid…there was love.
A Thomas Point of View 
Beautiful piece Tikeetha! A tough lesson you had to learn the hard way… Well done for choosing the path less traveled as it helped you move towards different and brighter horizons.
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thank you.
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This is beautifully written. Well done!
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So much truth, expressed so beautifully!
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Wow, this is so beautiful. You’re an amazing writer!!!!
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Aww! Thank you so much.
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“Pain that was inflicted when you no longer had love in your life and I like so many before me thought that I could save you. To change you. To make you see that I am the woman who you should choose. My spirit belonged to you and I wanted to sit inside your soul and sing sweet songs to your spirit.”
I was nodding my head like yup…been there. Actually, throughout the whole post, I could totally relate to it. I’m still working through that savior complex. I do wonder if, for a majority of women, it is a subconscious desire to be saved by someone themselves.
Anyway girl, enough psychology… I enjoyed reading this post. Many women can relate to it and it is wonderfully written.
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Thank you sis. Yep, been there and done that. Fell hard for the brother but when I realized that I couldn’t save him and he didn’t want a relationship with me, I pulled myself away from him and left him. It was painful but necessary. Now God’s got me in a better place mentally than I ever knew I could be.
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That’s wassup. Glad you were able to pull away and found better through God’s limitless blessings.
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Beautiful.
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Thank you.
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