It’s been a bear of a week for me. I’m sorry for not writing, but last week was crazy busy because for the first time in a long time I felt as though I got absolutely nothing done. I felt like a hamster just spinning on the wheel. It was exhausting…mentally, physically, socially and emotionally. My friend said, “You sound like you’re exhausted” when we were on the phone last night. “I am” I replied.
Why? Because so much has been going on. Here’s a snippet of my life:
- My co-worker resigned last month and a lot of work was transferred to me and the other team member. No big deal right? Wrong. We are a very paper oriented organization. Where are the tree huggers when you need them? We utilize paper enrollment to make changes to your benefits, enroll in your benefits, change your retirement, etc. One person enters them and the other person has to review and validate the entry. Yep, it really is 2016 and we’re still 10 years behind.
- I spend many of my days in meetings or trying to figure out this “new system” which seems to have unexplained quirks that cause me stress. I try not to eat lunch at my desk, but get up and eat with my co-workers because I need that lunch time laughter to rejuvenate my mood.
- Munch has been crying more than when he was a baby. He cries over everything. Any and everything that upsets him will bring about severe onslaught of tears. I’m so frustrated. It is exhausting. I said to him “Munch, every emotion doesn’t require tears. You can be sad, angry, frustrated, disappointed, etc but you don’t have to cry. Why are you always crying?” He responded, “I can’t help it mommy. My tears are too big for my eyes.” Um, yeah. He really said that. I reached out to his pediatrician for help and she recommended therapy. She said that it sounds like he has a little depression. Don’t know what a little depression means, but she recommended that I find a therapist specializing with children because depression usually starts showing in children Munch’s age and parents often overlook it. I found a therapist and he has an appointment this evening.
- On top of having to add therapy to my ever growing to do list, Munch started swim lessons again on Saturday mornings. Early Saturday morning practices and then off to church school and choir practice because the Easter program is on Sunday, March 20th. Saturday was packed and included a birthday party for my nephew who turned 2 last Friday.
As you can see I’ve been overloaded. Not to mention that Munch starts spring soccer and my schedule went from busy to overloaded. I kept thinking…Tae Kwan Do, swimming, soccer, tutoring and therapy. Something has got to give. However, Munch is not hearing it. Added practices for the Easter program and the upcoming Spring break and I can’t wait for March to be over. I still haven’t made the therapy appointments for my own right arm because until my son is okay I can’t even begin to schedule something. I’ll miss work. I’ll get behind. I’ll forget stuff. I’ll be overloaded again, but nothing else matters until my boy is good. I’ll deal with the rest. I mean isn’t that what single parents do anyway?