I told him that I had abandonment issues. That I was flawed. That I feared that a man that really loved me would abandon me. My dad did.
I felt like he did too.
Alone is where he left me to mourn. A light that had become dark slowly faded away from my heart. In that moment…I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t find the words to describe the pain but a knife repeatedly stabbing my heart could come close.
I got up and fell to the floor. The pain was unbearable. I laid there and cried. Tears of anguish. Tears of broken hopes, promises and friendship.
I was alone again.
I sobbed uncontrollably.
On the floor, in a heap, where I lay for an hour I nursed the pain you caused. I dried my tears and prayed for peace. I washed away my pain with alcohol hoping to numb the scars that were bleeding through.
I searched for relief through the hazy smoke. None came. The sun slowly set signaling the end of another day. Another loss.
Two down. Only me.
Time to stand on my feet.
Alone.
Powerful
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Thanks
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and you can do it.
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Stay strong…you definitely have it in you to get back up.
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I can see the strength in this…to be able to get back on your feet. That is the victory one achieves in the end.
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Sending hugs 🙂
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Hang in there! You are strong, you will make it through this!
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LOL. I’m good Gary! Reflection on a bad time.
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Ok, whew!
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My “like” function is broken, so, *like*.
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Thank you!
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❤
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Very Powerful
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Another wonderful blog. Thank you for sharing and for you transparency.
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Oh, Tikeetha, I’m sorry to hear. I think this is about your current un-boyfriend? But you described the pain of a breakup well. The pain experienced during it is even feels physical. 😦
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LOL. My current un-boyfriend? I like that. My non-boyfriend. I have to try that. But, it wasn’t all him. It was a reflection of many relationships and things that I had experienced. My non-boyfriend is still around. LOL.
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Lol! Well, I’m glad the non-boyfriend is still around… means he’s still doing ok for you. 😉
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Yep, he’s still doing okay. He laughed when I referred to him as my non-boyfriend. He’s like “Really T?”
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This is quite emotive. You are strong and though it might seem hard on some days, you are your own best support.
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Thanks Jacqueline!
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This is a very emotional and beautiful piece of writing. It took me be surprise as I read, I ended up reading it twice. Powerful words.
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Thank you so much!
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Haunting
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Thank you.
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life is all about being like water…come what may you have to cross all hurdles and keep on flowing…Its all about moving towards a better tomorrow…
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I love that! Thank you so much for posting. Have an amazing Monday.
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You’re most welcome dear😃
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As a reader, I will never abandon you. Please stay strong.
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Aww, thank you so much.
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Beautiful. You are. Love from afar..and yet right here. xo
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